I was in a great place for a while, finally had my self-confidence after who knows how long. Loved not wearing makeup and still slayin (I have nothing against makeup, people look beautiful with or without it, for me I felt like it was something I had to do that I really didn’t enjoy using my time to do) Everyday I looked in the mirror, I didn’t look pretty nah I was beautiful, that’s whether I was wearing sweatpants with five sweaters or wearing jeans with a nice shirt. But in a garden full of beautiful roses, you still have to remember to pick the roses carefully because they still have thorns. Life hit me with a curve fall, Gai, did I not see that coming. Funny thing is some lessons are not a one time thing, you have to remind yourself each an every. And for a short while, I let the opinions of other people get to me. Which is something I never did, but in college with everything going on, I reckon things just hit you harder than you expect. You see I took what other people saw me and I started seeing me in that lens. Basically letting them put a price tag on me. Someone once said, “Life is 10% of what happens to you, the other 90% is how you react to it.” Something I have learned about myself is that I learn from people, the L’s I take, the failure, the rejection easily...I turn all those things into lessons that I apply in my life to be my better yesterday. I am probably the one who can tell you what a one-year-old has taught me because my brain is always in learning mode. After self- reflections, coffee-dates and car talks (the one your friends force you to open up b/c they know you it’s not your thing). I realize that my value and my identity lies in my Creator. His Word calls me his masterpiece, workmanship, altogether beautiful, more worth than rubies and gold...and I can go on and on. You see I knew that but I let other people price tag mean more. Now not only do I know that, but I also leave by that. As humans everyone will see everyone different, one person can tell you something and about you that will differ from the other person. You can listen but you can’t let them define you. You can’t let people price tag you cause they will put you on clearance. I know my worth, I know my value, I am enough, I am independent, I am a boss, and here is the best part, I freakin love myself! You feel different honey that’s you, honestly sounds like a personal issue to me. Last time I checked, I ain’t snack, I am the whole meal. I wake up everyday knowing I look beautiful, someone complimenting me is just an extra. Little mix song says it best, “cover girl even with no makeup.” Know your worth; self-confidence is the best cloth you can ever wear, don’t let people tear that down!
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