2018 was a mixed a bag like a bag you get when you collect candy on Halloween, it is always filled with candies you like and candies you hate. Yet, 2018 was my year. If you came to read expecting me to rant about 2018 and write about my 2019 resolutions, I will save you the trouble: stop here and continue scrolling on your facebook timeline. For the ones who have stuck around, I don’t believe in resolutions, I prefer goals instead. But you won’t be getting those here either, you see when Jesus was raising Jairus’ daughter, he made everyone leave. Not everyone wants the best for you. Something I learned in 2018, is that prayer is POWERFUL. As 2019 has begun, I pray to handle it with prayer. Here is where I lose a majority of people, but that’s okay, my love for God is never and will never be something I am ashamed to express. My prayer for 2019...
Hi Father, thank you for 2018 and everything that came with it. Thank you for getting me through it and remaining faithful to me even when I wasn't. I pray to remain rooted in you you and your Word. For if you are for me, who can be against? I pray my relationship with you grows, to experience, and share your Kingdom with the gifts you have equipped me with. Father, I know you are a jealous God, I pray to put you on the throne of my heart. I worship the Creator not what you have created. Worship the Blesser, not the blessings. Father, I have written my goals, but I can't do it on my own because I NEED YOU. Proverbs says, "We roll the dice, but you determine where it lands." I need you to take the leading role. Leading role in my life, my plans, my goals, my family, my decisions, my actions, my friends, my leadership roles, my organizations, and my relationships. Point out to me anything that offends you and lead me along the path of everlasting life. I pray to come to you when I am hitting rock bottom because you want to hear it all. To remember, it's okay to not be okay and it's okay to cry; John 11:35, "Jesus wept." I pray I don't forget you when I am landing on the stars and thriving. When I win, I will praise you; when I lose, I will praise you. I pray to come to lay my burdens on your feet, to repent my sins, and ask for forgiveness. To remember, you can't bless where I pretend to be, but where I really am. I pray to forgive those who wrong me as you have forgiven me. To love because you first loved me. To give even when I don't have much to give. I pray for endurance during the struggles, perseverance during the hard times, and patience during the frustration. I pray for wisdom and understanding. Understanding when the world just doesn't make any sense at all, understanding when loss happens and comfort in the grieving times, understanding when life isn't fair, understanding when you are pruning me, understanding when you say no or wait, understanding even when it is painful, understanding when life is crumbling down, and understanding that some questions will remain unanswered. I pray for humbleness and gratitude when you say yes, when you perform miracles, and overflow me with blessings. I pray you open doors that need to be opened and close the ones that need to be shut. Father, I pray to not judge others because as an imperfect human being that is not my place to be. I pray to not fall into comparison but be appreciative for everything I have in front of me. As I am kind to others, to be kind to myself. Matthew 22:39 says, "Love thy neighbor as thyself." To remember, my value, worth, and identity lies in you. I pray to be the woman in Proverbs 31, who loves and fears the LORD. I pray to always do my best and let you do the rest. There is only so much I can do. I pray for my family. I pray for my mom, Violet. I pray for my dad, Vincent. I pray for my sister Lesley. I pray for my brother, Joshua. I pray for my sister Salome. To be a family that puts God first above all else. As for me and my family, we will worship the LORD. I pray for my grandparents, my aunties, my uncles, my cousins, my nephews, and my nieces. I pray for the relationships I carry to 2019 and the new ones I build. I pray to love everyone as you love me. I wish the very best to everyone that stays, to the ones that leave, and to the ones I let go of; we are either a blessing or a lesson in someone's life. I pray to be the daughter, sister, friend, student, worker, leader, and person you have called me to be. I pray for healing, strength, courage, security, protection, prosperity, peace, love, and breakthrough. I pray to never limit you because you can do infinitely more than we ask. I pray for faith like the woman suffering for 12 years, filled with praise like David, and to handle everything with prayer like Daniel. God-willing, 2019 will be my year and I just spoke and wrote it to existence. I pray in Jesus Name,
AMINA!
New Year, Same Me, just Improved and New goals.
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